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Allurism

Falling in love with being lost
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Unworthy

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Open
my soul, and pour the venom.

Only
mindless malevolence is my virtue.

My skin:
your shallow grave.

My lips:
the means to your untimely end.

I slaughter
your beauty, the more I fill my heart with your blood.

I am
madly insatiable.

Reckless
bones; coagulated pulsations.

Hold my hand,
and play the melody that is the rhythm of my sadness.

I
love
you,
though I dare not admit.

One day,
I shall curse you with shadow memories.

Nothing
more than simple glimpses of fate,

Of that
which could've been, shall be yours to bear.

Yes,
I
am
evil, and that which  unsound is my life's work.

Do not
forgive me, I wish not to be redeemed.
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I don't see an artist…I see a tree.

I can't feel the wind on her face…I can't breathe.

Her eye shadow is grey…Her mind is blackened.

I thought I told her not to stay…but my conscience doesn't know why.

I see a fortress of nails and wood…Her hands are bloodied and tied.

Clawing a cement wall only tired her bones…I watch my soul…I watched me die.

She pressed her ear against the glass…I said my apologies and wept.

The secrets she gave to me so precious…forgive me not the lies I told you once.

This poison…may it rot my blood and sorrows.

I have rejoiced in the face of perfection…only to see it swallowed.

I keep the heart I love so close to mine…she will never see me run.

I'll be gone before there's time…and my fate shall be that she shall never be mine.
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Shot Glass

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Waiting for the tears to roll back inside my eyes…
The full affect of vodka on my tongue and lips…
Holding in the effect of seduction in your innocent lies.

Waiting for the heaviness to drown me in their sorrows…
The dark that would call me sober if it could…
Holding out my heart in my hands as you swallow.

Waiting for the end to draw me nearer as it will…
The taste of burning saliva and the rawness of your kiss…
Holding the last drop of unsalted tears for you to kill.

Waiting for the animal in me to lie down and surrender…
The weight of this heartache to bear is all there is...
Holding everything that is left to give as my soul's defender.

Waiting for the return of the little pieces that was me…
The carnivorous creature that restored and then consumed…
Holding my lover within unto the last deathful ache and eternity.


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You walked me through the Deliverance, I wept in color Multihued;
I washed you with those Tears, and my hidden skin bled...unglued.

You bore my heavy steps in the Storm when I fled from my Shelter;
I Dried you as I rode the bus, all the way through my Deluded disaster.

You buried my fear and Stole me away from the brutal and the Heartless;
I let the rain drip off the Red from your white Soles as I had been reckless.

You Softened every step when my heart was Shattered, and my face broken;
I tied your new laces tighter so you wouldn't Fall apart as much as I am Uncertain.

You sat on the sidelines and Watched me awarded Japanese metals of gold and silvers;
I Carried you home so you wouldn't have to Carry me or my collection of blisters.

You lifted the World that rested on my shoulders, and didn't let me Feel the weight;
I have Nothing to thank you with but my Memories and a clumsy history of fates.

You rest in a Glass box in the corner now, Tired and weathered and sore;
I keep you Safe so I won't forget every day I go Without you, anymore.
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A touch and I leave them raped, for I have no affection.
And I can still feel them…
So lost if I can not find violence and his brother dread.
I kiss their lips…reducing all smiles to grievance as I always have.
A narcissist who's mind has darkened.
But I can see a small diamond of light…
And that is you.
You may not shatter me, I am already broken apart, my darling.
And my pieces are scattered, as I am but a measure of sadness.
Standing here, a stake run through my chest, I have no words…
I am unsound.
For words are like music that I no longer play.
I steal their songs…they no longer sing to me.
No bliss.
And I feel my zest for life is agony of death, but I don't believe in afterlife.
Heaven hath no reign over my soul.
There is no revelation to cancel my knowledge of myself.
And for what are revelations if one can not see through them?
I am what they call evil in all sense. I am finished with breath…
Or it is finished with me.
And I am bloodied as I was born…
But now there are scars.
The backlash of peeling your skin from your bones.
Have I injured you?
Let those wounds become my own then…
As my hands have caused you pain again, and again, and again.
So my sky falls, and love's worth dies along with this galaxy.
Oh I wish I was alone to destroy what is my soul.
But you keep so close beside that I will never see the end…
Though the end is with me.
And my torment is that I am unfaithful, but you are ignorant of this.
I keep your heart in a jar under my bed…
The place my lover assaults me, the place my tears find no rest.
Sickening or breathtakingly moving…
Whoever knows, please whisper it in my ear.
Maybe my love is actually, fear; the cost of knowing one's self forbidden.
Whatever I am…I wish I was not.
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